[Memory] [Mature] I Never Wanted Anything

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Anaxas' main trade port; it is also the nation's criminal headquarters, home to the Bad Brothers and Silas Hawke, King of the Underworld. The small town of Plugit is nearby.

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Tue Jun 30, 2020 11:19 am




The Canalworks The Cat's Paw
Evening on the 18th of Loshis, 2718
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ood, then, the toff’d said, same way you’d say boemo, breathless between kisses.

Mung, Tom kept thinking, this time almost admiringly. Being honest, he didn’t know what he’d wanted, if not this. Wouldn’t’ve been the first time he picked up some macha kov at a bar in Voedale or Redwine or anywhere on the east side, for all they wasn’t usually gollies like this one; he’d been looking for a distraction anyway, and now he’d found one, and cutting to the chase should’ve been – was – it was a flooding relief.

Charlie stopped. So did Tom, fingertips still curled in the fabric of his coat. He looked back; Ipadi’d stirred, poured himself from where he’d leaned on the bar. He was standing closer to the toff now, a whirl of red sage smoke leaking between his lips.

This time, Ipadi did grin, and a fair mant manna grin it was. Behind him, Nevio was stifling a laugh, scratching at his jaw. “Wo chet,” Arlo scoffed from behind the bar.

“Boemo,” shrugged Ipadi, grinning at Tom, “ye’ll find out.”

Enough. Tom shook his head, a laoso grin curling his own lip. He looked at the toff a moment more, with that crooked-tooth grin, a flush spreading over his thin, pale face. Then he laughed, and laughed harder; he grabbed his old coat a pina more roughly, setting off again into the dark.

The ceiling in the corridor – if you could call it that; the walls had a funny cramped inward tilt, a flimsiness – was low as the door to the street, and Tom had to duck his head again. Where the hall ended a few paces off, peeling wallpaper and worn plaster, the noise of muted voices drifted in from somewhere, and running water even more muffled. There was one other narrow door in the hall, shut; Tom pushed open the one that stood ajar, from which the light leaked.

The room was fair small, cluttered with spitch of various sorts in one corner, but not laoso; there were a couple of cots and more cushions scattered in the floor. The light was coming from a small lit phosphor lamp on a table, the tiniest blue glow, half-shuttered.

He didn’t shut the door behind; he didn’t know, after all, if he was enough of a man for Charlie Ewing. His lip twisted again, and he turned.

In the low light, the sharp edges of his pale face were soft; he reached out and ran his thumb along the sharp line of his cheekbone. The low blue light caught one of his eyes, glinted in his short dark hair, though the bulk of his coat bled into its shadow against the wall behind.

There wasn’t much room in here, but he wasn’t sure he was complaining. He bent again to kiss the toff, this time as forcefully as the first – as lingeringly as the second – and broke away, but let his lips trail along his jaw.

“Say somethin’ in that golly accent of yours,” he grated, feeling the anger and the bitter and the sad inside him wrestling, turning into something else, “tell me you think I ain’t man enough…” He could hear his pulse rushing in his ears as he reached to work at Ewing’s belt, as he started to sink lower.


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Tue Jun 30, 2020 7:29 pm

Loshis 18, 2718 - Evening
The Canalworks, The Cat's Paw
Charlie was almost sorry he said maybe, for a second. Not more than that, but it had been there. He noted this very seriously in his mind, sure to forget a moment later. Half of it was lost already the instant Tom grabbed the coat he was, somehow, still wearing and started down the hall. They'd all laughed, or come close to, and Charlie was grinning too. Let Future Charlie decide how much was just a joke and how much was sincere; he had no idea.

This place got stranger further in, somehow. Not a hallway, really, the ceiling too low for Tom to pass through without ducking and all the walls seeming like they were only still upright because they hadn't realized they could be otherwise. Or maybe that was just how they looked to Charlie right now, it was really hard to tell. He sympathized with their tilting.

There were two doors, one open and spilling the smallest amount of blue light, the other closed. Charlie didn't wonder at the closed door, or the voices, or the sound of water, because they went for the open one and the tiny room beyond. Charlie went inside; Tom left the door open. Supposed to have said yes after all, he guessed. He could have laughed, but the thought slipped away before he could grab it long enough to think it was funny.

Not much funny when he looked up and Tom ran a rough thumb along Charlie's face. Unless you considered how absurd it was that he was here at all. Right here in this moment, in the Rose in general. All of it, completely ridiculous. Charlie couldn't stop grinning like he had the punchline to a joke nobody had told. The low light picked out just enough for Charlie to find Tom's face in all the dark, to see the floor and the cushions and the cots and all the rest as indistinct, dark sorts of shapes.

Small, small room. Made Tom look even bigger, somehow. Not that he needed the help; like this Charlie was reminded that he barely came up to his shoulder. Charlie thought to stand on his toes, maybe, when Tom bent forward to kiss him again, but he kind of liked it as it was.

"Oh is that what you're into, then?" It was funny, Charlie thought. All that trying to threaten him at the door before they came inside, and here he was asking Charlie to say shit to him like that. Was it good or bad that this wasn't the first time someone had asked him for something like this? Although he preferred it to the opposite, which seemed to be what most wanted from him. Maybe it was his height. Once he'd been out of his mind and he'd thought all kinds of lofty stupid shit about it. Fuck him if he could remember any of it now. For the best; it couldn't have been anything very smart.

"That can certainly be arranged," Charlie drawled as clearly as he could. It was easy to summon up those round Viendan vowels, that disaffected cynicism so important to the Brunnhold social scene. He could do it in his sleep, he could do it through the heavy haze that seemed to have followed him from the other room down the hall.

"You'll have to prove it to me, if you are man enough. I haven't made up my mind one way or the other, you see." Yeah, there it was--that taunting edge, that thread of superiority. Charlie poured it into his voice, his smile, every line of him, even if he wanted that belt off so bad he couldn't think straight. Wanted lots of things. The second he could, Charlie reached out to run his hands through Tom's hair, mostly dry by now. He did like it, he'd thought so the whole time.

An idea came to him, and he snorted out a laugh. "Should the coat stay on? You haven't asked for it back."
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Wed Jul 01, 2020 12:20 pm




The Canalworks The Cat's Paw
Evening on the 18th of Loshis, 2718
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om was grinning between kisses; he could feel the muscles of Charlie’s throat flickering as he talked, then the hot stir of his breath. “Boemo,” he said, slow, for all he didn’t want to do a damn thing slow right now, “boemo, maybe it is.” The sound of Linden’s zither came muffled through the walls, leaked through the cracked door. It was quiet underneath their voices and their breath and the beating of his heart.

Would’ve been a funny angle, all this, if he hadn’t done it enough for it to come easy. There’d been six and a half feet of him for most of his life, and he didn’t think he’d ever met – or kissed – or fucked – anybody he didn’t have to look down at, even just a pina. There’d been one of those pale priests’d come close, only dockside long enough to pick up some supplies before he went wherever the hell he was going, and even he’d been at the level of his eyes. Ne, there was nobody as made him feel small.

Nor clumsy. His lips and his hands both had a qalqa, and he aimed to do both well. Toff’s belt buckle was cold to the touch, stark cold in the warm, close space between them; he shivered. All the more reason to get it out of the way quicker.

That can certainly be arranged, came the smooth drawl.

Tom let out a grunt. The noise was somewhere between angry – aching, aching angry, wild banderwolf pissed – and desperate. Toff went on, smoother than he’d talked even at the Louse, not a hint of a slur in that golly intonation.

He slowed down with his hands, slowed down with his kissing; he slowed down everything, worked painstaking-careful, let every touch linger and pause just a second too long. The anger thrummed in his ears. “What’ll it take for you t’ make up your mind?” he bit off, hoarse.

Those long, slim fingers was raking through his hair, now. He couldn’t fucking bear it, he thought; he couldn’t bear any of it, the rough edges of calluses barely-formed against his scalp, the unfamiliar patterns the fingers traced, the way the memories rushed up in him and threatened to swallow him whole. He felt like the tiny room full of spitch would bleed away, and still none of it was enough.

“Don’t stop,” he grated, thinking the only thing worse than those hands in his hair was those hands anywhere else. He’d got the belt off when Ewing asked his question; he heard that snorting toff laugh, and found himself grinning. “Leave it on,” he laughed, and then growled, “‘til I take it off, ye chen, toff?”

He snorted again; it was flooding ridiculous. He was vaguely aware of the tatty hem of his coat an inch or two above the floorboards, drowning the toff. Something about that he liked, a fair mant.

If Ewing said anything else, he couldn’t hear it over the rushing of his pulse; he could barely hear anything. He sank lower ‘til he was on his knees.

“I don’t have to prove shit to you,” he said, so soft he wasn’t sure if Charlie’d hear it. Floods, he was ready – he wanted – but he knew the worth in taking his time, and he’d been given a job. If a man has a job, he does it, and he does it well.


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Wed Jul 01, 2020 2:24 pm

Loshis 18, 2718 - Evening (Still, Probably)
The Canalworks, The Cat's Paw (But Who Fucking Cares?)
Slow, slow, slow. Charlie didn't want anything slow, not now, rarely ever, but he liked being frustrated too. Maybe it wasn't slow at all, anyway, maybe that was just the way it seemed because he was only halfway anchored in his mind at all. Anchored enough for this, at least, the thought floating more lazily than his reactions. It was a good thing he didn't need to think to fuck.

Tom sounded angry, and Charlie thought that might be the point. That was fine. Charlie could be as infuriating as he needed to be. And more besides, likely. That, too, was a talent. He had a lot of them that applied to this situation. His voice was smooth, not drunk or slurred at all, not to his own ears. Sometimes all that practice really came in handy. Charlie Ewing wasn't good for much, but he was good for this.

"Use your imagination," he purred, dizzy with the question. Everything lingered, even when it had stopped, like an afterimage on the back of his eyelids from having looked into a light so bright it hurt. Except there was nothing bright here, not even the lamp. That was dim and cool and blue, and nothing hurt. Not anywhere important. "You have one of those, don't you?"

"I wasn't going to." And thank fuck the belt was off; that might have been the longest that had ever taken in his life, and all of it deliberate. He asked his stupid question about the stupid coat, choking on his own laughter. Leave it on, huh. Sure, sure, sure. That was fine--he could do that. Even if he didn't know what half of that meant. "I don't know what that means, but whatever you--I can accommodate."

Charlie kept talking, but he didn't know what he said. Stupid shit, probably. Not like it mattered, really. It was just talk, just chatter to fill the air. Just the shape of his voice, or close enough to it that it wasn't important what he actually sounded like. There was no other sound to drown him out, just the edge of the zither bleeding in from the other room, his blood in his ears, the water outside. Tom's knees hitting the fucking floor. Alioe, full of grace. Could get drunk enough just on a sound like that--except, ha, he didn't have to. He already was.

Charlie felt, honestly, a little unreal. Dissolving. Like nothing tied him together except this vague idea of "being Charlie Ewing", a concept that was rapidly unraveling. Good, though, good. He was just a face, just a voice, just hands and body, here but not present; just like he wanted. The kind of self-destruction you came back from, in the end. Or he wouldn't, and it wouldn't matter. He had sought it out, and he would follow it to the end, good or bad. None of it mattered, and everything was fine.
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