padi was looking at Aremu all intent-like, that smile not a whit dimmer.
Tom didn’t look at Aremu. He’d looked at his hands, when he’d turned ‘em over; he’d watched the muscles flicker in his scarred forearms, followed the dark creases across his palms, the pale shapes of scars on the back of one hand – the other swathed in white. He’d a funny feeling, being honest. Somehow those hands looked like somebody else’s, even though he’d recognized those deft, careful fingers, working at the buttons of his cuffs.
He thought he might’ve recognized the smile he saw on Aremu’s face, in the corner of his eye. Wasn’t the kind of smile he’d thought Aremu’d bring here.
He’d been careful not to let it show on his face when his Brother talked, for all he didn’t know what the fuck he was on about. He’d been sucking at his tooth, still looking at Aremu’s bandaged hand.
He knew how to play his role well enough, boemo. Even if he’d rather Aremu not’ve made him play it here. Was Ipadi’s fault, he reckoned; didn’t know what he was on about, neither, asking a question he already knew the fucking answer to. He looked up slow-like, let his eyes wander round all the kov and the chip – even her, oes, with her sour face – letting them know he’d heard.
He met a few eyes, too, Mason’s and Linden’s mainly; he knew they’d look at him, and it didn’t bother him none. Should’ve bothered them more.
When Arlo spat, he looked at him; he stared at him good and hard, sucking at a tooth, ‘til the little wick talked. Then he cracked a big, crooked-tooth grin. “Better not, kov,” he said, all cheerful-like.
Arlo just kept grinning. Mason started laughing, a kind of uh huh huh huh laughing, like he didn’t know he ought to be laughing. Arlo husked a laugh, too; Tom snorted, then grunted. The laughing stopped.
Ipadi’s smile broke for a half-second. The pipe’d gone to him now. He took a drag, eyes fluttering shut as the smoke left his lips; it whirled up, billowed out, catching the paper lanterns’ blue, red, green, the oil lamp’s warm glow. He smiled again, holding the pipe, one lean wrist balanced on his knee. He watched Aremu, keen.
“All the respect in Vita,” he said. “Respect nothin’ more than an honest man who knows his qalqa.” He shrugged, passing the pipe to Úsir.
“Bhe,” the chip muttered.
Fuck it. You know him already? Tom wanted to demand. Couldn’t figure it otherwise; he was feeling a laoso prickling at the back of his neck. “Can’t agree more, Ipadi,” he said just as bright, shifting and moving to get the mant bottle of eza. The neck clacked awkwardly against the lip of his glass when he went to pour.
Ipadi was watching him. “That so?” he said, casual.
Shivery-cold. He was missing Aremu in some way he couldn’t put a name to. When he settled himself back beside him, he brought the bottle with him. Lamplight flickered over those two familiar hands; he wanted to reach for one of them, to rest a hand on his knee, to touch one of his bared forearms. He couldn’t bring himself to, like they was strangers.
“D’you take more, dove?” he asked anyway, like the word was an argument; he made himself look at Aremu as he offered the bottle, made himself look in his eyes and ask himself what was there.
He felt like maybe he’d see that smile again, like they was on the job. He couldn’t’ve said what was on his own face, neither; he felt like he’d got his qalqa all mixed up.
Úsir said something in Mugrobi, then. Wasn’t a Mugrobi much like Ipadi’s; she lilted the vowels low and long, up and down almost like a song. She was looking at Ipadi, the same frown set in her lips. Ipadi said something in Mugrobi right back, then smiled over at Tom, then smiled at Aremu, raising his brows.
“Epaemo for Úsir,” he said, shrugging. “Ent in a good mood, ye chen? Most nights she’s a field o’ flowers, adame.”