verything dissolved – he was straining muscles, scrabbling, the air coming in and out of his lungs. Aremu’s hand and prosthetic, firm in his, firm and very warm now that his own warmth had leached into the wood.
The bark was rough against his foot, when he braced it against a slightly higher branch. It slid, and he was conscious of a scuff of pain. But he wasn’t thinking.
He thought he might’ve overshot, and for a moment the whole world tilted – Vita tilted, some part of him thought, Vita turned, Vita turned – he thought with a rush of air out of his lungs he might fall – but he didn’t let go, and neither did Aremu, and both the hand and the prosthetic were easy to hold onto. Strong, he realized with another wave of leiraflesh, with another almost-laugh. With an intensity he hadn’t felt since he’d carried him back from the shore, and even then half-asleep: now he was awake in every fiber of himself, and he felt Aremu’s solid strength through him like a bolt of lightning.
And then he was over the branch, Aremu settling him like a scruffed kitten. He didn’t have the breath to speak at first. Good, Aremu was saying, good, here, his voice soft and glowing, and he folded himself into the sound, wrapped in it. The hand knotted in his shirt guided him upright, and he squirmed to settle himself on the branch.
There was no looking down; there couldn’t be, not yet. So he shut his eyes and felt it out with the hand Aremu had let go of, the branches that moved even now underneath him. He held to the prosthetic still with the other. He could still feel the reverb of the straps, and there was something terribly comforting about the solid wood of it, with all Aremu’s strength bound into it.
Good, Aremu said again, in the same tone.
“Good,” he repeated with a breathless laugh. He felt lips in his hair; he saw the shadows of leaves against his eyelids. “Ah,” he murmured softly, “good,” and let go of the prosthetic only when he felt wholly sure of himself, and even then his hand lingered, though he knew Aremu was still close enough to reach for.
His back was against the trunk. He didn’t think he’d snagged or torn any of his clothing, though it was a little disheveled; he might’ve been embarrassed for Aremu to see him so, but – somehow, he couldn’t think.
He breathed in, his chest aching. His legs were wrapped round the branch. It moved a little bit underneath him, especially when he shifted. He didn’t open his eyes yet. Instead, he tilted his head back, resting it back against the trunk, looking up; then, he opened his eyes.
Aremu was smiling down at him, the sunlight blazing through the leaves and prickling at the edges of his hair. Just above – just close enough. “Good,” he half-whispered, and leaned up and kissed him.
He reached to stroke his cheek when he finally looked around, as if the touch could anchor him. The fear dropped through his stomach again, but he couldn’t see much: they were in a thicket of branches and shivering leaves, the path and the shrubs invisible.
Shame, he thought with a lance of selfish anger, running his thumb over Aremu’s cheek as he looked at all the leaves. He hoped Tsofo pez Erfuan was off climbing; whatever he was doing, it wasn’t the smallest fraction as wonderful as this.
But he didn’t want to think about Tsofo, not now, not yet. He meant to speak of the gaps they’d left soon enough, but – maybe, he thought, for just a few moments more…
He looked up at Aremu again, smiling softly, and leaned up to kiss him. “This,” he said, laughing quietly, “is the first tree I have ever climbed.”