Hotel Pendulum, The Stacks
The Aggraziato was a commercial liner, a rigid airship. Aremu knew the line well enough; he could imagine the internal framework of the envelope, the tracery of ring bulkheads pressing, firmly, against the droped fabric, shielding the gasbags within. It had a small exterior viewing platform, curved and shielded against wind and sun, nestled at the edge of the lower deck. Aremu had found his way to the upper deck instead, and settled himself at the junction where the slanted window that ran lengthwise along the deck met the curved one that took up the hull. It was a quiet spot, far from the bar and the scattering of comfortable chairs that made up the smaller of the passenger lounges. Standing, there, with his right wrist tucked against his pocket and the fingertips of his left hand just resting against the glass, he could feel the shudder of the engines as the ship began to rise; he could see Vienda spreading below them, wreathed in its own faint smog. He could see the farmlands on the edges of the city, tapestries of green and yellow and brown, with roads like seams winding through them.
There was no pretending, aboard the Aggraziato, not even for a moment. All the same, Aremu held there, still, and watched, for the entirety of the half-day journey. Hunger and thirst were foreign to him, as distant as the white sand shores and red dirt of Isla Dzum. He watched, though his dream of being free had never felt more like a nightmare.
The beginning of the descent had wrenched through him. He had looked down, the better part of the last hour, and only when he felt it did he force himself to lift his gaze. Looking away changed nothing; Aremu knew to face it. Even from a distance, he could see the wall of Brunnhold campus rising up. He could paint the inside in his imagination, red brick and green trees; he had seen it, although from a distance, well enough for that.
He had left the window then, although only for a brief moment. He was not the first passenger to have been sick in the lavatory; he thought he could smell it, distant and lingering, though the perfume and potpourri. He had little enough to bring up, but whatever he had wrenched through him, and left him wrung out.
Aremu splashed a palmful of water on his face, and dried it off, and rinsed his mouth out until the taste eased. And then he went back to the window, and watched a little longer as golden rays of sun spilled over the world below, as they descended down. He walked, willingly, into the trap, but its jaws were no less sharp for it.
He did not hesitate when the time came. The passengers around him flowed off the ship, and Aremu with them, conscious of Tom just as his elbow, of the tight, worried gaze of flat gray eyes, drifting to him and away. Aremu looked forward, and never back; he could not. There was a time, in any climb, when to hesitate was to be lost; when the tired ache inside had to be resisted, and not gentled away. Aremu knew it well, on the cliffs of Isla Dzum and the Rose, on the branches of a thousand trees, on the tracery of pipes and windowsills that led up buildings in Thul’Amat and beyond, even on the chainmetal of a semi-rigid airship. He knew it here, and he knew better than to yield.
Aremu stayed just a little distant in the shipyard, just distant enough. He knew the boundaries well; for once, he could not bear to know if he was seen. There was a low murmur of a familiar voice, and once an amused chuckle, and then movement again. Tom spoke to the driver of a carriage as two moa clucked and shifted their feet, and Aremu climbed inside and flinched, once, when the man shut the door behind them.
He looked up at Tom, across the small space as the carriage jostled and began to move, as the candle flame against the wall flickered. There was something like a smile on his face, but he could not sustain it. Aremu eased himself back against the seat, and did not close his eyes, not even here, though he longed to. He looked down at the hands on his lap, instead, the one of flesh and the one of wood, and brushed his fingertips delicately over the prosthetic.
There was a point - there must have been - when they left the shipyard, when they entered the Stacks. The ride was not even; it stopped, here and there, then and again, and each time Aremu felt it pounding through his pulse. Now, he wanted to ask, and then again, and again. Now?
The carriage stopped again, and Aremu tasted his heart in his throat, bloody and bitter-sweet. This time, he thought, this time.
The door opened, then, and the coachman nodded at them both. His gaze flickered over Aremu, curious; a faint frown knit his brow. Whatever he saw, whatever he felt, whatever he knew, he turned back to Tom. “Here it is, sir.” He stepped back, then, to let them out.
Aremu came out second, his right wrist tucked against his pocket; his left hand lingered on the door frame, just a moment, and then he stepped free of the carriage. He looked around at the Stacks; he turned to Tom then, swallowing against the heavy collar of his coat, and he nodded, just once.