Hotel Pendulum, The Stacks
I hurt you, Aremu wanted to say. I didn’t mean to – I didn’t –
He couldn’t think of offering an explanation. He had said more than he should have already; he didn’t think Tom wanted to know all the bitter, aching pieces inside him. He hadn’t meant to put them on the other man; he hadn’t meant to show him the anger and the hurt. He didn’t want to feel it; he didn’t want Tom to think of him like that. But to offer explanations seemed to him fundamentally wrong; it seemed to him as if what was needed was for Aremu to come to Tom, not to ask Tom to come to him.
And yet, in the gap between not-knowing and knowing, he had been afraid he had lost too much. Tom’s smile – his words – they were like a balm, and Aremu smiled a little wider too.
Thinking about it, Tom said, and there was a moment – Aremu’s eyes searched his face, and he felt a thrill of fear – and then Tom laughed, and Aremu grinned too, and felt the other man’s hand against his. “It’s a Foucault pendulum,” Aremu said, a little shyly. Something went crooked about his grin; he felt self-conscious. He tried to sustain it; he searched Tom’s face for something he couldn’t name, and he didn’t know whether he’d found it.
“It’s – not so different from a clock’s pendulum,” Aremu said with a little frown, thinking it over. “Foucault was Anaxi, of course, at Brunnhold,” there was the faintest tightness of breath to his voice at the name of the school, but he kept through it, easily. “He designed the pendulum to demonstrate the rotation of Vita. It’s – it’s actually – ” Aremu’s gaze flickered up to Tom’s face again, and then back down.
“I’ll show you,” Aremu said, abruptly. He let go of Tom’s hand; he rose. He looked about the table, with a little frown; he took one of the oranges from the bowl in the midst of the table, and curled long fingers around it. He glanced at Tom again; the frown lightened, and a little smile replaced it. He came over to the other man’s side of the table; he perched on the edge of Tom’s chair, both legs bracing him gently against the ground.
“Imagine this is Vita,” Aremu said, with a little grin. He held the orange out; he turned it gently in his hand. “We’re here,” he tapped a spot on the side of the orange with one finger, “and we turn, slowly, like a dance, so we face the sun during the day, and we face away at night.” He turned the orange carefully in his fingers, slowly. “Every day is one rotation.”
“It sounds ridiculous, I think,” Aremu said, with a little grin. “Foucault wasn’t the first one to think of it, but he was – he came up with the first experiment to demonstrate it. It’s like this.”
Aremu shifted; he tucked the orange onto his thighs. He reached past Tom, carefully, and took the heavy knife he’d been using to eat. With a shy little smile for the other man, he wiped it clean, and brought it back to his lap.
“This can be our pendulum,” Aremu said. He held the handle between his thumb and forefinger, and dangled it over the top of the orange; he lowered it, carefully, so the tip just brushed the thick skin, and let it dangle back and forth. It followed the same arc, each time, tracing the same white line deeper and deeper into the pith.
“This is what you’d expect if Vita is stationary,” Aremu said. “The pendulum follows the same arc, every time. But,” He hesitated, looking down at his lap. There was a moment when he frowned, when his right arm shifted, stilted and furtive, forgetting.
Aremu set the knife down; he took Tom’s hand in his. He smiled at the other man; he brushed his knuckles with a kiss, and then he settled Tom’s hand around the orange. “Hold it for me?” He asked. Aremu took the knife again; he settled the point against the top of the orange. “Rotate it, slowly,” Aremu smiled at Tom. "Yes," he grinned; it lit him up. "Just like that."
He let the knife swing again, back and forth; it scored thin, careful lines into the orange, tracing slightly different ones each time, as Tom turned the piece of fruit. Aremu was grinning even wider, now; he set the knife down on the table again, and cupped Tom’s hand in his.
“We don’t live here, really,” Aremu touched the top of the orange with his thumb, the scored part. “We’re more like here,” he traced the pad of his thumb down the side of it, utterly absorbed. “So it – takes longer, actually, than a full day, for the pendulum to come back. It’s – rotate it again?” He asked.
He took the knife; he held the handle, delicately, and he circled it around the orange with Tom, keeping the handle in the same place relative to the orange, at an angle against the upper hemisphere of it. He didn’t let the blade fall freely, this time, but rotated it slowly up and down himself, letting Tom see how – with the handle fixed – the same movement traced different lines against the same spot each time.
“We have one at Thul’Amat,” Aremu murmured, his voice low. “There are calculations that can be done, to determine – based on where you are – how long it will take the pendulum to come back to where it starts. It falls the same way, every time, and we rotate beneath it.”
He stopped, there; he grinned, sheepishly, at Tom, and set the knife down once more. “Ours has a sand pit, underneath,” Aremu said, a little dreamily. “If you sit – if you’re patient – you can watch the heavy point of it trace different lines, each time, slowly. It’s beautiful.” He swallowed, hard; he glanced down at the orange, at the tracery of lines across it, and then up at Tom with another shy smile.